A cry from the dark

I can't remember the last time someone loved me,
That someone reached deep into my soul and lit it up.
I'm void, I'm numb, I'm going through the motions,
And I don't know where I'm going or where I've been.

It all seems like a dream to me,
A fairy tale I tell myself.
And everybody's in on it,
My poor, miserable life.

Thank God I've got so much going for me,
Or I'd truly be a waste of space.
I don't get the point anymore,
Nor the person I'm supposed to be.

I thought my heart was done breaking,
Looks like I love you too much.
The tears roll down without care, acknowledgment or notice.
No one notices. No one cares. Everyone humours.

I take it in, to numb the pain.
But they are without.
And I am without.
Alone.

I am no longer the person I was, wanted to be, or dreamed to be.
I just exist.
in the void
in the meaningless abyss
And I can't handle it anymore.